Below are the 19 most recent journal entries recorded in xmyonlycurex's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, January 24th, 2007
10:15 pm	Digging up the past This evening, a lot of reminiscing has been done. I'm not sure why, but I was certainly feeling nostalgic. I think it was mostly, because of a conversation that I had yesterday - about the past, about how things used to be, and then about the future, and how things will change. And then today, I talked about an old diary, several old diaries. And it's really weird to look back, and to think back to that time, to what was going through your head. I also, thought about someone, whom I haven't thought about in ages. I guess you could say, that I did a bit of lurking. But not really, I mean it wasn't really lurking. But I thought about him, and it was weird, because I never do, and I haven't talked to him in years. I don't know why I do this every so often. I try to look at the past. Maybe, it's because this semester is coming to a close. This is the last time I'm going to have to start a new high school semester. Today was the last day I will ever sit in a high school art class, have to take a religion class. It's just a weird feeling. It's not that it isn't a good feeling, because it is. I am so ready to move on, it's just, strange. I like online journals. I don't use my journal anymore. Hell, I don't even write. I wish that I did. I really do. I wrote a poem a few weeks ago, but that was it. I wish I did a lot of things that I used to, but then again, I am enjoying life right now. It's pretty great. I've got good friends, and am having some good times. And I guess that's what important isn't it? Surrounding yourself with the people that you care about, and doing the things that you love. I want to go to the movies, and take a ton of pictures. And listen to acoustic lullabies. Current Mood: weird Current Music: I'll Catch You - The Get Up Kids (Comment on this)
Friday, March 31st, 2006
10:34 pm	March 31st.. Once again, I don't know why I am writing. I guess I just need something to do. I hate my job. It leaves me bored and alone on Friday nights, when I should be out having fun. Doing soemthing. Anything. Because this is so damn boring. Just sitting here. And I swear, if I have to listen to Hedley and Rex Goudie again, I will shoot myself in the foot, so I can leave and go to the hospital. It's actually torture. I've been complaining all evening. I don't know why. I guess because I'm just waiting for something bad to happen. It's my sister's birthday, and for the past 3 years something bad has always happened to me on her birthday, and I've always stayed home sick from school. Well, I didn't stay home sick today, because nothing bad happened and nothing made me feel sick. Besides finding out that I work 30 hours next week, nothing all that bad happened... And it's just weird, because I was kind of prepared for it. Well, I guess I'm never really quite prepared for something bad, I was just ready to accept the inevitable. I've been doing a lot of thinking this week. Something I haven't done in awhile. I have to make some decisions. Some decisions about life, about who I am, what I'm doing, where I want to go. Things like that. I really have to take a step back, because I feel like I"m jsut wasting time. Wasting time doing meaningless things, and I hate that. There was no real point to this entry. Just a result of boredom and exhaustion. Current Mood: bored Current Music: Nothing Gets Crossed Out - Bright Eyes (Comment on this)
Saturday, March 25th, 2006
10:13 pm	Bored Why am I even on this thing, I don't know. Maybe because I deleted MySpace. Maybe, because I felt like writing. To someone, anyone, anything. Or maybe, perhaps, I'm just bored out of my mind after coming home extremely early on a Saturday night. God, I've really got to get myself more of a social life. 'Cause this is just lame.. I haven't written in this in a year and a half. And I still don't have much to say. Life isn't any more interesting than it was a year and a half ago. Except for the fact that I grew up. Later. Alex (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 11th, 2004
5:43 pm	..such a sucjer for that I haven't written in here for awhile. I don't really have a lot to say. School started, it's alright I guess. It's not much fun, but my classes are pretty easy, so far. It's akward, all these people that I see, and I'm not talking to them anymore. But then there are other people that I do talk to now, and it's just like.. hi.. yah. I don't know, I'm weird. And this entry is useless. But what can I say, I'm bored out of my mind. People went to see rosesdead and moneen, but I did not. Obviously, because I am at home, writing this useless entry. I'm tired, I was woken up at 8:00 this morning. Me = not happy. I watched the Dead Poets Society, it made me cry. How I love Ethan Hawke. Time to go, I have to shower. ~Alex xoxoxox Current Mood: anxious Current Music: down, set, go - underoath (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 25th, 2004
6:48 pm	sing me anything... So I am not doing much of anything at the moment, just kind of sitting here, thinking I guess. i finished the story that I started writing ages ago last night. I don't know if I'm too fond of the ending I chose, but if I hadn't ended it the way I did, it would have gone on forever, and I would have gotten extremely bored. I saw Garden State last night, with Julie and Jordan. It was an amazing movie. See it. it's worth the 8 dollars and 50 cents that you would probably spend to see some movie that was not worth it. School starts soon, I know this, because I got my schedule today. Second semester is going to be hell, but I'm sure I'll find my ways to have some fun...like avoiding homework, I've still got this year before things actually start to count, which is good. i don't know - like, yah. I don't think that I want to get all worked up about school, because it's not even something that I like that much. I just like going because it gets me out of this house, away from my parents, and I get to see my friends. But there are some people at school that I am not looking forward to seeing very much. But hey, oh well. i will get over that. Ahhh...less then two weeks of freedom left. Whatever will I do? ~Alex<3 xoxoxoxox i've become content with this life that i lead Current Mood: good Current Music: existentialism on prom night - straylight run (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 22nd, 2004
12:20 am	slowdance on the inside.. I want to put a picture up, but once again. my computer will not allow for that. Damn computer. I went to some banquet hall with my parents for some Italian feast. And then there was this guy from Italy, and he asked me to dance with him, and it was kind of awkward, but I felt compelled to say yes. It was hard to converse, because he couldn't speak much English, and let's face it, I'm a lost cause with Italian. But I don't know. it was akward, lol. I'm kind of tired, kind of bored. I think I'm going to go to bed soon. I have to work at 12 tomorrow, so I probably should. Night. ~Alex xoxoxoxo (Comment on this)
Friday, August 20th, 2004
11:59 pm	damn The world, is pissing me off at the moment. But then again, what doesn't piss me off? God, why am I so angry these days? Confusion, and anger, and just plain hate of everything makes me just so mad, and I don't know what to do with myself anymore...GOD. It's not fair. I like to complain to myself, 'cause i know how much the rest of the world likes to hear me. Like the people who are supposed to be my friends, yet are too engrossed in conversation with randoms. Yah, alright. Fine. Next time, we'll see. ~Alex no god damn x's and o's.. Current Mood: angry Current Music: i'll play dumb, you play deaf - paint by numbers (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 17th, 2004
8:34 pm	i'm gonna have myself in shambles So I just heard the Atari's song, "The Boys of Summer", which is actually a Don Hennley song, but it doens't really matter. it made me happy. I don't know why. I guess it reminded me of a sipler time. Like last year. I don't know why last year felt so much different. I mean, I guess I've grown, and so has everyone else. We've all become different people in the course of a year. It just makes me really sad, because we've all changed so much, and I feel so distant from some people. And hearing that song reminded me of last summer and all the things that it held. And then tehre was this summer. Which was filled with new beginnings, and tired endings. I guess moving on, and growing up was what this summer was about. The summer of self-discovery I like to call it. As much as i've complained about what a boring summer I've been having, I've met some great people who make me smile, and spaced myself from the ones that make me sad. And I'm really proud of myself for being able to live my life the way that I want to. I mean tehre are still things that I would like to accomplish tha tI know I won't be able to do until I'm older, because well, my parent's are just weird - but when i finally become everything I want to be, I'll look back to this summer and remember everything big and small about it. Even just learning to appreciate the sunshine. Wow, I don't know why that song brought back so many memories, I guess I'm just being a little nostalgic. I really wish that I had done something really exciting this summer, but the truth is taht I didn't. I worked, and I did some of the things I wanted to. I met new people, great people, that I like to talk to. I drink coffee now:), and I've written quite a bit. I painted, more so at the beginning of the summer. And now that tehre are only a couple weeks left, I'm just like, wow, I've realized how much I've done, and how good it feels, to just have interests. And I don't know, I'm happy for me. There haven't been any boys of summer for me, unfortunately. I'm still as lonely as I was at the beginning of the summer. But hell, I've got some time. Oh well. I don't know, maybe a boy would just be another thing that I don't want to worry about. I think it's time for me to go. Au revoir my lovlies, ~Alex xoxoxoxox i pictured you in blue, but i have to say i'm more partial to the red Current Mood: content Current Music: the boys of summer - the ataris (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 15th, 2004
11:51 pm	I'd give up forever... This weekend, was.. interesting. I am running on almost no sleep. And I am tired. I worked both Saturday and today. Today at 10, that kind of was terrible. I don't know, nothing exciting is really going on. I suppose that's okay. This week should be relaxing. I don't work till next Sunday, so I'll probably just sit around and enjoy some of the last days of summer. On Thursday Tyler's band is playing - so a bunch of us are going to go watch that show. Should be pretty fun. I want to see "before sunset" with ethan hawke. It looks good, and I like Ethan Hawke:). That's all I have to say for today. Night. ~Alex xoxoxoxox Current Mood: restless Current Music: iris - goo goo dolls (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 14th, 2004
12:42 am	sickness in sleep I like how no one ever talks to me, and I just end up sitting here like an idiot, waiting. 'cause I'm stupid, and have nothing better to do with my time. This is sad. I really need a life. but i refuse to go to sleep. ~Alex xoxoxox Current Mood: cranky Current Music: the sounds of silence my friends... (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 11th, 2004
12:45 pm	I'm sad right now, I don't know why. But it's not much fun. We went to Brie's last night after the terrible movie...ahah.. but it was fun. I mean, anything can be fun if you're with fun people:). I hadn't seen Ash in so long.. and then jordan came. he is a cool kid. But I'm upset now. I don't know why. I left my cd at brie's:(. that makes me sad. I'm going to the mall...alone..i feel like such a loser. oh well. i think it's time to go. ~Alex xoxoxoxo know you know everything... Current Mood: sad Current Music: these photographs are proof (i know you know) - tbs (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 10th, 2004
12:37 pm	show me show me show me Silly me, I'm tired. I never sleep - that's not so good. The sun is starting to shine, maybe I will go outside. i saw the Cure yesterday, they were awesome. I was sad that Cursive didn't play, I was looking forward to seeing them. I don't know, the past few days have been weird. I've been a little more confused than usual. Oh well. Nothing that I can really do about that. I'll get over it and figure things out eventually. I always do. Well, not really. But hey. Oh well. I pulled two all-nighters in a row. Why you ask...I do not know. I guess I was bored. That is all i have to say for today. Au revoir, ~Alex xoxoxoxoxoxo Current Mood: confused Current Music: just like heaven - the cure (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 7th, 2004
11:02 pm	i tired to learn to scream today.... I have the flu, it is gross. I wanted to go see roses dead, but I obviously did not, because I am sick. I was supposed to work today. the cure concert is on monday. I'm excited. the cure and cursive...YAY!:). I'm kind of tired, but I'm not going to go to sleep, because I want to wait for the world to return from the show to see if it was good and stuff. Later lovlies ~Alex xoxoxo Current Mood: sick Current Music: a torrid love affair - boys night out (Comment on this)
Friday, July 16th, 2004
12:50 am	Today's the greatest day I've ever known... Well...Not really, but I reached my only goal for the summer. I always have such high expectations for myself, hahahah. I'm bored, and tired. And I should probably be asleep right now. I want to go to Queen Street with Pamela tomorrow, but I doubt I will be allowed - shame, isn't it? Goodnight, and farewell. ~Alex xoxoxoxoxoxo wow...I still haven't made this thing look nicer. Perhaps I should look into that soon... Current Mood: drained Current Music: Today - The Smashing Pumpkins (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 14th, 2004
2:10 pm	so when you ask, is there something wrong? I don't know why I'm feeling upset right now. But I am. And I just feel tired, and bored. And I have no reason at all to be sad. The sun is finally shining, and I find myself inside, in front of the computer. Sad - I know. So yah, something is wrong. ANd no one is reading this. And I am talking to myself, when I could be outside writing in the new notebook I bought the other day. Damn machines.. ~Alex xoxoxoxoxox Current Mood: bored Current Music: tiny vessels - death cab for cutie (Comment on this)
Monday, June 28th, 2004
12:21 pm	My heart breaks for someone new </3 It's about time isn't it? Yeah, I haven't written in here for awhile. Sorry about that, but it's not like anyone actually reads this anyway, so it doens't really matter. But yeah, a couple days ago, I don't know, feeling good about finally getting over things that never happened. I'm an idiot, what can I say? But then again, I wouldn't be me if I wasn't such an idiot:). Oh well. Nothing more to say right now. I should probably get to making this journal look nicer... ~Alex (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 2nd, 2004
8:22 am	I'm in business class at the moment. Sitting beside Dany and Nat. They are cool. I misplaced my disc man:S. Not cool. If I lose it I will cry. But, Gianni says that his friend found a disc man yesterday. So perhaps it is mine. I will pray that it is. We are making web sites in business class. Maybe I can use my newly developed HTML skills to make my journal more interesting. Or I will just be lazy, and leave it the way that it is:). Dany discovered an awesomeoly cool diary on diaryland. and yah. I don't have much to say. I am sad about my discman. :(. I hope that I find it. I am reading "Brave New World". It is quite the interesting book. I was so tired last night, but I couldn't sleep, so I was reading it. I don't think that was the best idea though, because I'm not sure that my brain processed half of what I read. I suppose it is not that hard to comprehend. haha, don't you love my use of big words:D. That's all I have to say for now. Current Mood: sad Current Music: black eyed - placebo (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 30th, 2004
10:44 am	It's kind of early to be awake on a Sunday morning. I've had a soccer tournament all weekend. It wasn't very fun. But we're in the finals, so I have another game at 1:00. Yesterday, I was thinking about how time is so weird. Beacause, like, this semester is almost over, and it feels like it just started. It went by so quickly, and yet when I look back, everything seems like it happened so long ago... Oh well, I guess I will never get "time". it affects everything we do, and i don't know, it's too much of an idea to grasp at the moment. I'm just too tired to think about it anymore. Haha, that seems like all I do. Think. now isn't that an exciting passtime? ~Alex Current Mood: tired Current Music: Needle in the Hay - Elliot Smith (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 26th, 2004
3:38 pm	not much to say So this is livejournal, pretty cool. I'm sorry, but this entry is going to be pretty boring:). yay. My journal will probably be pretty boring looking too. Until I figure out how to make it look cooler or whatever. I don't have much to say today. Maybe I will post a poem, or song, or something random that I've written later. But I don't have anything right now...So yah..Later. ~Alex xoxoxoxo (Comment on this)